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我是2008年11月創立自己的部落格,而2009年才開始正式寫的.. 而11月和12月的全都是在1月的時候補寫的~

Wednesday, April 25, 2018

Seasons in the Sun

Seasons in the Sun


Goodbye to you, my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

[Bryan:]
Goodbye, my friend, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

[All:]
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

[Shane:]
Goodbye, Papa, please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song 
Wonder how I got along

[Mark:]
Goodbye, Papa, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there

[All:]
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

[Nicky:]
Goodbye, Michelle, my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

[Shane:]
Goodbye, Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

[All:]
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

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这首歌也许很久很久以前就听过了吧... 只是在大学的某一年,一听就记得那旋律了...
从那个时候开始,一直都只是听而已.. 只知道这旋律很顺、很易记..直到今天,突然间好想看看那真正的歌词...
一看... 就有种感觉 - 这首歌背后应该存在某种意义..
结果就去找了伟大的谷先生 (Mr. Google)..
果然,这歌不简单...~

Seasons in the sun.. 阳光季节...
看歌名,像是一首非常阳光、充满盼望的歌吧?
至少在今天之前,我一直都是这样认为的...
旋律很轻松,感觉就是一首很开心、很阳光的歌..
可是当看了真正的歌词,还有整首歌背后的故事后,就明白了这其实是一首极为悲伤的歌~
这首歌其实一开始是源自于一首法国歌曲 Le Moribond (意思为“临终的人”)..
我去找了这首原创来听... 其实感觉很恐怖.. 因为不明白法国音调,加上如此悲哀的意思.. 可以说实在,我听不下去~

Seasons in the sun... 诉说着一段故事,一段三角恋的故事...
简单来说就是,两个男主角喜欢上一个女主角,女主角和第一男主角结婚了,有了孩子...
后来因某些原因,女主角和第二男主角出轨了,被第一男主角发现后,就把他们双双击毙~
最后留下了一个女儿,名为Michelle..
我就是看到歌词说“爸爸,请为我祈祷”,再加上Michelle这个名字,让我顿时觉得这背后有故事,而且极大可能是一个悲伤的故事...
果然如此.....~

后来再听,就是以着另外一种心情了~
有悲哀、有希望.....


这首歌的故事详情与意义:
https://baike.baidu.com/item/SEASONS%20IN%20THE%20SUN

Sunday, April 22, 2018

不懂怎么了

最近我不知道我自己怎么了.. 我身边较好的男性朋友, 不是他们把我惹毛了, 就是我把他们惹毛了.. 都不对话了..
那天, 我有个男性同事上班最后一天了.. 他要回hometown..
也许我觉得, 他是我进来这间公司后算是第一个认识且还算聊得来的"朋友", 而年龄也相差不多..
所以那天他last day, 我一直问他问题他都答非所问让我生气得不想理他了..
我看了他最后一封whatsapp说"we will meet again", 当下就让我想起了那首"see you again"..
怎么感觉像是生离死别呢.... 我没回他.. 心情感觉不太好~

过后, 又另一个朋友被我惹毛了吧..
也不知怎么说.. 其实一开始确实是我很不爽..
原本我们约了这星期日一起出去吃东西.. 因为有人载我出去一个比较靠近他的地方让他更方便来载我, 我就问他过后结束了是不是载我回家呢?
他就说没有..... 没有..... 我意想不到的答案..
他说meet了我过后就要跟女朋友见面..
当时第一个出现的想法就是, 从什么时候开始, 他会把我载出去但不把我送回家而要我自己想办法该怎么回去呢?
我又有了一种"明明还是女朋友比较重要但为什么一直坚持说不会有了女朋友后就对朋友冷淡"..
其实本来一对情侣当中就是另一半会比朋友来得重要吧?
但其实要不是他每次坚持那一句说即使有了女朋友但还是会对朋友跟以前一样的那种说法, 我就不会有这么意想不到的时候..
我那时候还生气的是, 我跟黑碳两个星期没见面了, 但我还是把这个见面的机会留给你, 但你却希望早点结束这个见面而可以早点去meet女朋友, 还要我自己想办法回家...
我实在是。。。。。。那就不见好了..
我就直接跟他说"取消吧"... 不见面了.. 我说"我不想出了"..
他call我几次我不接电话.. 一开始确实是因为我在忙没听到电话响, 后来听到了也不想接..
应该是这样, 他也火了.. 我说不想出了, 他说"up to you"...
随便你..... 你喜欢......
一句对我来说很严重的话... 就这样, 我们又停止对话了...

直到黑碳, 也是因某些事而发他脾气..
也许是小事... 也许是大事...
也许我觉得是大事他却觉得是小事... 我就是发他脾气了..
我也不想厘清到底是小事还是大事, 我就只是固执的继续发脾气...
躺在床上, 没吃没喝地过了一个早上半个下午...
我饿了, 但我就是不吃!
我对别人发脾气, 但我也对自己发脾气了..
别人不知道我想怎样, 我也不懂我自己想怎样..

我把这样的情绪归咎在连续两个星期的OT上..
两个星期都看到公司里的两层楼都关完灯了, 我就这样默默打卡在寂黑的夜晚独自离开...
为什么这样................ 实在是很无奈!!!!